Step1
There is the famous 12 steps program that was designed for people who identified themselves as addicts and look towards a support group solution.
Step2
From my own experience, I have witnessed more personal success stories of addicts who have gotten clean and STAYED CLEAN through the 12 Step program than any other program available today.
Step3
I however want to concentrate more on reaching through to the still using addict, whose life and thoughts are consumed by the need to use and get high, and for whom, unfortunately he inability to admit to any problem at all is one of the classic symptoms of the addiction itself.
Step4
So I will give you my own personal final chapter of using that finally resulted in me realising that I "might" have a problem with drugs, but not just drugs, more so, any mood or mind altering substance.
Step5
My list of tell tale signs were the following - I needed to use as often as I could.
I thought about using when I couldn't get hold of anything.
I found it perfectly acceptable to drop out of my law degree in my second year - having attained the top marks in the first year of the degree.
I started to associate myself with people I felt really uncomfortable being around.
My days became my nights and vice versa.
My ambitions towards sustaining my lifestyle turned to crime...a day job just was not for me.
My drug intake started to get more and more intense, the type of drug I was using also started to graduate from pot to coke and then to crack.
I shut myself off from the world, turning off the phone and leaving my family very worried as to my whereabouts and well being
Getting arrested by police for the first time at the age of 26 and again within 6 months for drug related offences.
When confronted by my father about what was going on, I lashed out and physically assaulted him the first time in my life.
Step6
Watching my father bleed from a punch to the face in stunned shock was for me my wake up call.....what had I just done, but more importantly, how do I stop things getting any worse..if worse was possible.
The realisation that ONLY worse was possible if I did not get help was the first moment of clarity I had in a long time. Anything was better than where I was headed and so I knew what I had to do to regain a life worth living. I checked myself into a rehab center..
Comments
Nuggit said
on 10/16/2007 Hmm. You should probably get a blog. Looks like a lot of emotional baggage to me. The best way to get off drugs, and I honestly believe this, is to smoke weed. Amen.